MashaAllah, beautiful story. I have this habit that when I am feeling lost, I open the Quran at a random page and read the first ayah that catches my eye. SubhanAllah, it always feels like it gives me the answer of what I need to do, or it consoles me, or it gives me relief. As you beautifully put it, it saves me. "Verily in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest." 13:28